Its the Eve again

Feels like deja vu every year during this time.
I am so over making those new year's resolution :P

Well I will not make a resolution but I will definitely make a list things that I would like to see happen in the near or so. If its not done, it will be brought forward :)

Time flies, each year I ponder back what have i achieve in the last 12 months.
I would say that this year has been much clamer than the year before.
But this year was also a passing but not in my family.
As I look back these are the things that are significant enough for me to remember

1) I finally went for a vacation after 5 years of non vacation - overseas.
2) I finally feel more settled with my life , making lots of important decision and learning not to regret. Moving forward no matter how tough it is.
3) Have come to a point in my life that I no longer give two hoots about what happens. If I die tomorrow, I welcome it.
4) My good friend since college here and then University in the US, mom passed away. Went for the memorial service. Still remember every event with her mom very clearly. She was only 56. Sucumb to cancer - lung - similar to my sis-in-law.
5) Learning to live more in God's grace and guidance. But haven't totally let go.. yet.
6) this year my age has two no 3 in it... suppose to be lucky hor.. but havn'et seen any luck .. hahahaa...
7) This year after almost 4 years with bonus, i finally saw some extra $$$ coming in but alas this will go towards my dental surgery next week. Talk about lucky....


Things I would like to achieve , just not in the next year but from next year on.

1) visit places - Italy, Bali, Japan, Spain, Greece ( not in any particular order)
2) try to find a way to work with my difficult boss
3) hopefully still have the patience with my idiotic team mates esp bonnie black.
4) start on my spanish class ... (hopefully will find a place) .... a fresher first.. since i have wasted my 1 sem of spanish which i learnt in UNI.
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. and the list will be added as year goes by :)

Life goes on....
one thing I am not looking forward to is growing older by 1 year. DARN!

My Christmas Dedication to You .. Enjoy!!!!

Hey Friends,

Here's my Christmas carol dedication to you :)
Sung by yours truely... enjoy

ok you have to go to the url manually lah. coz i tried to link it but it errors off.
www.geocities.com/mystic_grey2002/i_saw_mommy1.wav
www.geocities.com/mystic_grey2002/haveyourselfamerrylilchristmas.wav

I miss not singing this year around town

Have a Blessed Christmas

Power!!!!!!

Recently, I was in the mood to give feedback.
After I came back from AU, I realized that the burger here in McD really got no quality lah. The Size has been shrinking every freaking day. So i decided to login to their website and give them a comment or two. I guess they were expecting everyone to tell their Great Experience with Mc D.

Coz they seem to post only nice stuff. Anyways, I wrote my comments and lets see whether i receive any reply or not. Being malaysian, I bet they won't reply nor do anything.

But I still believe in the power of FeedBack. what happened was, I have been living in this place for 1 year now. And I noticed paying maintenance fee is a waste of freaking money coz they dont really manage the place. Always will only move their arse once we bug them. all these stuff should have been done without us having to tell them.

Alrighty, here's the situation.
the floor number at the lift lobby on my floor has been missing for months... months i tell ya! and then just infront of the waste room, there is a huge damaged door sitting there for more than 6 months. And some lights at our floor corridor is out... So i got really pissed.

I wrote them a Feedback and place the form in the box infront of the office. It was this morning. And Guess what.. they fix 2 things out of the 3... POWER!!!!!!!

And for my suggestion, I put there they should be more efficient if they are taking the owners money or else its just a waste of our money.... all written properly without using any profanity or rude words HAHAHAA

Not bad hor!!!!! POWER POWER....

The Death of My Tungsten E

My Tungsten E is about 2 years old. It died on me couple of months ago. It refuses to start. Took it to the dr. and was firstly informed that its becoz the charger ws faulty since they manage to revive it for that period in time.

Bought a New charger , charged the TE but alas the next day the same problem again.
This time took it back to the DR with the charger and TE in hand. That sales person asked me to come back after 20 min and then told me that indeed the battery is dead.
Then i said, ahhh.. and u asked me to buy the charger yesterday... he had the gall to say, you can use in the office mah

Mah your head!!!! Already dead how to use at work.. dong goi.....

Anyways, i called palm and was told that to replace the battery would cost me US76 or i can replace the unit for a new one for USD125.

I found out there is a better version out called Tungsten E2. RM88X+ .........

Tak tau lah...
Gadget like that... seems to become obselete over nite.

The Machinist

Watch The Machinist today.
For once, there was no subtitle!!!!!! none in chinese nor malay!!!! Was awesome....... without the sub of course.

Anyways.. the show is abit profound. Not something that you can sit back and just enjoy. Requires abit of thinking and analyzing... :P

Quite ok tho but can be a bit draggy... its drama sort.

go watch it if you got time to spare.

MY most beautiful....

So they say - that they are looking for MY's Most Beautiful Woman!? Really?
Have you ever watched it on TV? Actually I didn't even know they had this reality show on. I knew that Dove was having this campaign on most beautiful woman. Not so much of the looks but also the inner beauty.

Ok, I my brains were working at its right speed and capacity, I believe I understood it to be regardless of how you look, what your age is, what your personality is, you can stand out as beautiful in your own way.

Eh Hem... after watching the show, I see is as a total embrassment to watch these ppl on TV!!!! National TV behaving like total bitches!!!!!

Yeah some ain't young either.

Anyways, There is this one lady a mother of 2, aged 39. Okok I am not that young either. But the way, she manipulates the whole situation and put words into people's mouth, spreading rumours to cause a scene was horrifying. But you'll be gla to know that She got kicked out last week!!! heehhee.

Worse of all even while one of the judges was still talking, she was also talking simulatenously. Teruknya ethics. But you'll be surprised she is of mix race coz she has the last name of Davies but she is actually clad in headscarf. Pretty - alright i guess. But with her personality as ugly as that, she didn't look anymore that beautiful.

Gosh, I believe there are many women out there who may not be as pretty outside but has a beautiful inner self and personality but why these lot was chosen.. only those casting people knew.

Just Like Heaven - The movie

Remember sometime ago, I wrote about this book I bought - Just Like Heaven.
If you don't remember, here's the link to it http://mystic_grey.blogspot.com/2005/08/just-like-heaven.html

Today, I went to watch the movie. Oh How disappointed I was!!!!! The story was totally off from the book. I preferred the book version much better. I mean even the characters in there were like different. In the book, there was no mentioned of a sister called abby.

Gosh.... eventho' the only thing in the movie is the view from the apt was awesome. I totally miss San Francisco. I wish I had an apt that overlook the bay and looked that awesome and a garden on the roof top :)

I guess it best to watch the movie first before actually reading the book - which is the best way to avoid disappointment.

ILL

Was glad to be back.
But now am sick.
down with flu... hopefully not bird flu.
Pain at the cheek due to the congestion at the sinus node/pad (whatever).
pain pulls till my eyes waters.

Need to rest.
can't write in long sentences.
hopefully pain doesn't cripple my brain hahahaha

ciao...

Almost the end

My trip in AU is almost coming to the end. I am back from Brisbane. 2 more days here and I will be heading home.

Its funny how when you're far from home, you keep thinking about home - your plans for home keeps coming up. Maybe its God's way of sending me here to put somethings into perspective.

Brisbane was kinda different from Syd. In Brisbane, they have this suburb call Sunnybank hill and alot of asians there hence you feel very not like in AU :) but the good part is the good food and also ability to get asian stuff - if you live there of course. My friend there works as a real estate agent. She is one smart lady huh.... almost every month she sells a property. She used to be in IT and after moving to Brisbane, she couldn't find a job for 1 year + hence the second year she was there, she actuallydecided to take up the license in real estate and go for it. Always the gungho one even when we were in University.

I have some pictures of Brisbane but shall put it up abit later..........

Today I will be going to the city again to... actually get some more things from St. Mary's Cathedral.

Home Coming is closer now... just days away.

A little bit here and there

Alrighty, since I am in the mood to post some pictures, here goes. Sorry peeps, i no post pictures with me in it ah...


Thats manly beach - went there on the first day. Manly beach can be assesed either by going there via a ferry or by car. My friend's husband drove there and mind you, the roads are abit bengkang bengkok :P. When we drove there , the scenic view was just awesome. You can see bay areas, clove... just awesome. There were people sunbathing at the beach. But we just took a walk and then sat down to enjoy the beautiful scenery. The breeze was very cooling, but without the breeze its abit hot. I had my first taste of oporto burger. (check out the website http://www.oporto.com.au)

Hyde Park - Very refreshing to find a park in the middle of the city. Alot of birds flying around so I had to becareful not to get poop on my head hehehe. Overall the greenery and the dash of fresh air was good.

Inside QVB - Host many expensive brands. I just walked about and took pictures.

Hyde Park again

Over Laid Back?

Hmm.. so you're in a country where people are mostly laid back (another word for lazy? is it?), what happens to you? DUH, you will also fall in tune with them HEHEHEHE

Last time I wrote was 2 days ago was it? Or was it yesterday? Its the hardly working that is making my brains acting poofy too?

Anyways, yesterday, we went to Birkenhead factory outlet!!!!! hehe. Really man... its different from what I expected. I have only been to those big huge Factory outlet in the USA and they are extremely worthwhile. Imagine me! A person who loves to shop... ended up with an empty hand :P Pretty darn discipline this trip I tell ya!!!!!!!

I really don't know what happened to me. I see alot of shoes blablabla.. clothes blablabla.. nothing really interest me to just bring out my wallet and buy something!? So different from when I was in Houston in Feb this year. I guess I am looking for something I really really like. Maybe I haven't laid my eyes on them yet? But just like the US, most of the shops here are the same at every mall. Its either portsman, susan, target, kmart, sportgirl... cue..... not cheap either if x3.

Wonder what happened to me!?!?!?!??!

I spoke to my friend who has now resided almost 5 years in AU. She was my ex colleague. I have tried to get hold of her but as usual we were playing phone tags. While I was at the mall getting my lunch. Yeah the mall near my friend's apt. Its like just 5 min walk away. My Ex-col called, lets call her V. V called and started with such an Aussie accent hehehe. Then after awhile she drifted into her malaysian accent. So I asked her.. you have been here over 4 years now.... how do you feel? Feels like home now? I was suprised with the answer I got. She said this... no its not home, its just where I work. She currently lives with her uncle in some suburb. She was living on her own for the last couple of years in a mostly asian suburb and rented a 1 bedroom aprt. Her mom came around most of the time from MY. But i guess after extending the visitor's visa once too often, she had to go home. Since then she moved out from her rented apt and moved to life with her uncle.

Hmmmm... see home is still good? home minus the hot weather would be excellent. But to have home in a hot weather vs cool weather minus family and friends - which would u choose? maybe a few years in the cool weathered country - earn the money$$$$ and then head home :P
If you're still not too old to get a job back home!

I will be meeting up with her on SAT... hence we will be talking abit more.

I head for brisbane tomorrow nite!!!!! only for 3.5 days tho'

I am actually looking back to coming home

Do you like my new look?

Hey guys,

you probably noticed a change in the outlook :P

I know i know, ringgit will probably say its too girly girly hahahaa.

My friend over here helped me with the art work really, the background, the gifs, etc.

Thank You G!!!!!

Tripping around

We went out to a place called Paddy's Market and Market City. Its somwhere near Hayward ( hope i got the spelling right, too lazy to go verify).

We took the train to Central station. Well, since its been awhile since my friend went to this area, we were trying to figure out how to get around, which train would be better blablaba. Well, this is my first time stopping at Central.

Turn out - the place is china town.

Walked to Paddy's Market, passed by this place called - YHA - mainly for backpackers but look damn canggih wor!!!!! Wonder how much per nite. See I am believer of staying at reasonaly priced or even cheap but safe hotels/hostels. As I believe, when you're travelling, you're not going to be enjoying the ambience of the expensive room, are you!?!?!? If yes, then why come all the way for a vacation!?

Once we have reached the place, we attacked the food court first. I decided on the thai cuisine.... Noddle with 2 dishes - medium size cost me AUD7.90. Eh expensive leh. The Chili Chicken that I took - to my surprised was not even spicy but sweet instead.... not that great but at least the chicken was succulent. The other dish I opted for was the Ginger Toufu. Not to bad that one. But some of the carrots has black black rotting spots on it. Aiyaya.. see everywhere you go, chinese/asians are always prone to cut on the quality to make money! Disappointing isn't it.

Then it was to the floor where they had this Factory outlets for named brands such as CUE, ESPIRIT, CK, etc. I managed to get 3 pairs of cargo pants for my brother which cost AUD20 each. Which is a real bargain leh.

So far I have been very discipline. Most of the things I bought were for people with exception of 2 tshirts since I brought alot of long sleeves and now the weather isn't eventhat cold no more. I can do laundry but I still need enough to recycle around :P

Purchases so far.
1) 6 boxes of PODs
2) 2 large packets of minties
3) 4 kids tshirt
4) 1 adult tshirt for my uncle
5) 1 rose petals rosary
6) 2 tshirt for myself.
7) fridge magnet souveniors for my colleges at work. 2 packs.

Hmm.. i am proud to say so far I have been quite discipline with my own shopping hehee.

i still have brisbane to explore.

Also, since thin heels and pointy front shoes are in fashion - i dont like these sort so which means its good, I won't be buying any. They have those platform - cork heels mules/shoes. So far haven't found one that I have truely fallen in love with.! hehehe.

Updates

I am already into the 5th day in Syd.
Yesterday I took my adventure trip down to the city again. This time the plan was to go to Darling Harbour and Sydney Opera House.

As usual, I left the Apt and took the train to the city. By now, I am already a pro at readin the notices at the train station(eh hem). One thing good is that it scrolls and shows all the station that each train is going to be stopping and also the platform number to board the train. Its very efficient and accurate. I love it.

I usualy stop at Town Hall station as its central and I can then decide to walk to which ever destination and come back here to board the train back as I always bought Return tickets. I find it funny to use the word "return" as when I was in the States, we always use the word "round trip". Sounds better tho' roundtrip and made more sense.

Anyways, I reached Town Hall station (mind you it has lots of exits, you might get loss, if you do just set your bearings right and start walking :P) I went to have breakfast-cum-lunch at Mc D. WOO WEEE.. i just loved the chicken sandwich so.... yummy and the bread is so soft!!!!!!

I then went to the information stall at George st. and asked for directions to Darling Harbour. The lady - an elder lady wasn't too friend. Anyways, i took the sydney map and walked down Bathrust Str as per her direction. All the way straight and I reached the sign that says DARLING HARBOUR... cool!!!!!

Walked around darling harbour. Walked across the bridge there(can't remeber the name, will look in the map again).. and then after finishing off with darling harbour around 2pm. I walked to the other end which is where Syd opera house was.

The weather was blinking hot!!!!!! and the walk to Syd Opera house was one long long long one. These were all done by looking at the map and observing the road names.

By the time I got back to the apt and a total of 5 hours walk. My face is now sun burnt and arms shows evidence of my short sleeves. Go figure, don't even get a tan in malaysia when walking in the city but get a tan here in AU. Ai yayaya

Today I didn't do much except going to Westfield mall near my friend's apt.
Bought PODS!!!!! 6 boxes until the lady at the check out counter said, u sure must like PODS :P
I din'd bother to answer besides just smiling of course. Its sometimes good to act blur or stupid hahahaha.

tomorrow, I am going to Paddy's market.

I do have some photos taken but I shall... put it up another day. Its almost 11pm here and I am dead tired....

p/s I do miss home! Its right when they say,your heart grows fonder with distance. I cant' call my mom everyday now can I!?!?!?!?

Shall update more tomorrow and also next week, I fly off to brisbane to see my uni friend who now resides in Brisbane with her husband.

ciao for now.
oyasumi....

Some Pics

1) Kinokyuniya.... :) at Pitt St - in the building called Galleries Victoria.
2) Queen Victoria Building - shopping mall at the bottom
3) The last picture is St. Mary's Cathedral.

My 3rd Day

Today is my 3rd day here in Sydney.
Time sure goes by fast. I arrived on 30th Oct 2005 and today is already nov 1st 2005.

Today I took the Train from Hornsby where my friend G and her husband G lives. Before the actual event. G's hubby, took the pain of explaining to me the train routes and the stops to get off depending on the places which I wish to visit. Even took me on an orientation to the train station the nite before to show me the sign boards and tickets stuff. I totally appreciated that effort. :P

Since today is All Saints day, I wanted to attend Mass. I have surfed the web and know that St. Mary's Cathedral is in the City itself. It would be a good opportunity to attend mass since I am heading out to the City anyway. I found a really interesting item there at the St. Mary's Shop - rosay made from Rose Petals which is from Fatima ( a religious place in Europe - i think its Italy but not sure :P)

The train ride on the cityrail too me 40 minutes from Hornsby to Town Hall. There were other stations which could have been a alternative to Town Hall which of course depends on where you want to get to. I choose to alight at Town Hall bcoz I felt that it was easier and more central since I was going to walk around the city.

Arrived at Town Hall station around 11.30am. Alighted the train. Blur like sotong. Then saw the sign that Said QVB Exit. Took that exit and ended up in another mall called Town Hall Square Mall. :P

Today as just a day where I explored what Sydney has to offer. Pretty much I went to just around the Retail district.

Tomorrow I shall go to Darling Harbour and Sydney Opera House

hoo hoo...

After 30 minutes delay and 8 hours flight, I have finally arrived in Sydney, AU.
This is my first time here in Sydney. Not my first time to AU tho'.
The last trip I came was to melb and it was courtesy of my previous co hehehe.

As usual, its just my luck that I never get to seat with some handsome young chap. Instead, I sat beside a woman who refuse to talk to me.... and an elderly man who kept on talking.

But i was interesting how.. i did most of the listening and he most of the talking. He revealed alot about himself and his children who are now residing in AU. Even their ages and the year they were born :P

In btwn the conversations I also found out that...he is a catholic too and he attends SFX. Well, he told me that i can find him anytime in SFX hehe.

Anyways... the nite is not young here huh.. its already almost 12am and back home its just 9pm.

Well... havn't planned much yet.. lets see how things goes tomorrow.

For the first time this month

Since the fasting month started it has been very difficult to get seats at restaurants or food court during dinner time.

Its almost scary seeing these people. You know why, coz they buy the food and seat down and stare at it until the time to break fast. Everyone clobbering for seats. So if you're not fasting, you would even feel bad trying to rush with them

Today I went to see my friend who is a doctor to get some medication for my rhinitis which seem to get worse. So there was a KFC around the corner. So i decided to eat the instead of trying to fight traffic and probably be starving in the car.

I walked it, that place was empty and its already 6.30pm.. when I left around 7pm.. it was still empty. Feels good for the first time this month I manage to get a seat to eat without having to elbow my way to a table :)

Time sure flies, in the next couple of days... fasting will be over and celebration is on.

Is this me?

"Narrow Door": The secular society conditions us to over-value the "easy way out" of things. Do we face challenges positively? How do we face the differences of views? Do we give in to comfort instead of maintaining the discipline needed for prayer? Enter the "narrow door" of the Lord to deepen your love for Him.

-- hmmmmmmmm.........
-- probably so ...........
-- a need to change ............
-- double hmmmmmmm

Compassion

Sometimes being a Christian is a real challenge.
Recently the uprising against Bonnie has increased tremendious

Yesterday it came to my realization I do pity him. One guy in my team, he is everyday bad mouthing this fella and his 1 to 1 with boss... keeping instigating that he not be confirmed and hopefully fired.

In the meeting yesterday 2 guys were trying to really make him look bad.. badgerring him. I felt pity for him. He was out on MC for 3 days coz he had his wisdom tooth removed. Everyone was making fun saying" does he even has wisdom tooth"

But yesterday, it strike me that instead of participating in this I shuld lift him up in prayers. Maybe he has some kind of issues that we don't know off.

Eventho' it is his fault that he has attitude problem, pure laziness, taichi master but yet... as a human being, I think i don't want to see him being fired. At least I would like to see him change.

I know alot of ppl in my team will disagree and probably deem me as not part of their big plan to sabo him.

I make a promise to myself that I will lift him up prayers that he would change for the better....

Sometimes, we have to love our enemies don't we?

I would like to think that I still have compassion in me for such person even.

Ai ai ai

Sometimes I can just lose my patience. Which is happening more often than not.

On the road, all those crazy drivers , driving as tho' they own the freakin road. The crazy jam during this Ramadhan period is killing. Every day the whole city is at a standstill traffic. CRAZY!!?!?!?!?!

Not only that restaurants as pack and also the supermarkets. Thats not the worse part
The worse part is how they navigate their way at the aisles. Like shit only. Inconsiderate!!!!! Just stop and park their cart wherever they want. Then dilly dallying like nobody business. BEH TAHAN!!!!!

Please have some sense lah.

Then after shopping you get to the car park, you see a shopping cart parked right at the rear of your car?!?!?! Hello!?!?!??! Have you heard of the shopping cart bay. are you feaking blind!

DAMN!!!!!

Too many Jinjang Joes in KLang these days. Infested!!!!!!!!!!!

..... DUT......

FREAKIN DEPRESSED

Good reflection

check out

http://www.wau.org/meditations/meditations.asp?month=9&day=19&year=2005

my fav part:

This story of Cyrus’ edict and the Jews’ response tells us that we must never give up hope—even if years pass and our prayers seem unanswered. By staying close to Jesus in prayer, we can keep cynicism and doubt at bay and become instead like those Jews who hoped against all hope and lived to see their dreams fulfilled. God will fulfill his promises, even if he uses unlikely people, unlikely events, or unlikely timing to do so.

“Father, I cannot understand your ways. Still, I marvel at your wisdom and love. Help me to trust in you when my prayers seem unanswered. Guard me from despair and open my eyes to see you at work all around me, surrounding me with your love.”

The Tailor and her Snide comments

Ok ok, I went to tailor. I usually just buy my stuff from the mass production stuff you know? Like G2000, etc. Well Topshop and all that is beyong my budget lah.
Anyways, since I have gained quite abit of weight after i actually stopped my gym about 1.5 years ago.

Aiyah this tailor huh, no tact one... See I went with my mom and sis. My mom is very petite type, and my sister she is slightly shorter than me.

The tailor hasn't seen me in awhile and she said.. WAAAA fat already. Esp you, your sister not so bad. Your face esp. DAMNATION!!!

ANyways, after she measureed she said.. oh not too bad lah.. only by 1/2 inch at certain area and 1 inch gain on certain area. But your face looks fat lah.. ENOUGH Aleady :P

Anyways, she told me, you got to diet next time before you come. Each time you come you gain... 1/2 in lah and if keep increasing, you will have problem. :((

She made me feel feakin depressed.

Just Finished Reading

Ok On Friday, I borrowed a book and its called Where the rainbow ends by Cecelia Ahern.

Guess what I finished it by 11.30pm Sat nite.. hahaha.... Well, i didn't sit at home the whole day, I went out to the tailor.... for a couple of hours.

I also just found out that Cecelia Ahern is the Irish Prime Minister's Daughter.. wow wowow. This is her second book. The first one was Called PS I LOVE YOU. It was quite good too.

Ok currently reading. Bindis and Brides by Nisha Minhas. Started this morn, and currently at page 95.

Received this in my email box today

This is the whole email...............

Hope the message would encourage all of us that God is watching and holding
us at all times.

Malachi 3:3 says: "He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver."


This verse puzzled some women in a Bible study and they wondered what this
statement meant about the character and nature of God. One of the women
offered to find out the process of refining silver and get back to the
group at their next Bible Study.

That week, the woman called a silversmith and made an appointment to watch
him at work. She didn't mention anything about the reason for her interest
beyond her curiosity about the process of refining silver.

As she watched the silversmith, he held a piece of silver over the fire and
let it heat up. He explained that in refining silver, one needed to hold
the silver in the middle of the fire where the flames were hottest as to burn
away all the impurities.

The woman thought about God holding us in such a hot spot then she thought
again about the verse that says: "He sits as a refiner and purifier of
silver."

She asked the silversmith if it was true that he had to sit there in front
of the fire the whole time the silver was being refined.

The man answered that yes, he not only had to sit there holding the silver,
but he had to keep his eyes on the silver the entire time it was in the
fire. If the silver was left a moment too long in the flames, it would be
destroyed.

The woman was silent for a moment. Then she asked the silversmith, "How do
you know when the silver is fully refined?" He smiled at her and answered,
"Oh, that's easy - when I see my image in it."

If today you are feeling the heat of the fire, remember that God has His
eye on you and will keep watching you until He sees His image in you.

Pass this on to everyone you know. Right now, this very moment, someone
needs to know that God is watching over them. And, whatever they're going
through, they'll be a better person in the end.

"Life is a coin. You can spend it any way you wish, But you can only spend
it once."

10 things You don't know about MG :P

Obviously, there are more than 10 things you don't know about me.

Lets start with 10 okay?

1)MG plays the piano. Has completed Grade 8 at the age of 16. (obviously hasnt touch the piano for eons :P)

2)MG also plays the organ.

3)MG took ballet lessons until she was 12 years old

4) MG was active in sports in school. MG played netball, badminton and was a sprinter running 100 and 4X 100 and 200M.

5) MG dislike the dark. Had a very haunting experience in her bedroom during her secondary days.

6) MG has fulfilled her dream of going white river rafting and white river kayaking but too bad its here in MY

7) MG wore braces previously

8) MG inherited the 2 dimples from her paternal grandmother :P But now seems to disappear even now... getting chubby eh..

9) MG comes from a family of 4 children. MG being the 3rd and the least pampered. The forgotten one. Ain't the elder, ain't the first boy, ain't the last child either.. :(

10)MG would like to go to Italy one day. Too visit the Vatican city.

aiyah got more ah.. but a promise is a promise.. 10 means 10 heeee.

Coincidence or Providence

Couple of things has happened and makes one wonder if its coincidence or providence.
Maybe you can ponder of this and see what you think!?

of course if you're a person of strong faith, you would probably skewed towards Providence.

Scenario 1
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sis-in-law funeral, me at church 9am to go read up on the reading for the funeral mass prior to the funeral mass. At the church hall at the same time, my friend Joanna registered her marriage to Thomas. I didn't know that. When I was leaving the church , the guy who drove me to church asked me , do you know that gal in a wedding dress waving at you? I of course in my state of daze didn't realize it. Couple of weeks later saw Joanna, she asked, was I at church on this day? I said yes, it was my sis-in-law funeral.

Scenario 2
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Sister-in-law's name is Sarah.
2 sundays ago, at mass, saw joanna with thomas and baby.
After mass, approach them, I asked Joanna, whats the baby's name. Joanna said Sarah. errr... my mind went... oh Gosh.
That was also her daughter's baptism day.


So tell me is this coincidence?

I think its too close for coincidence...

What do you think?

Aging Gracefully

Have you seen the latest pictures of Demi Moore? Of Nicole Kidman? of Kelly Preston? these people age very well don't they. Some look better in their 40s or late 30s much better than before!


Demi moore is 44... and she looks better now than before...

I wanna look like that when age. And be as graceful as ever :) hehee.

Natural Disaster or Wrath of God

First it was the Tsunami which we thought was one of the worse natural disasters of late. Then comes the Hurricane Kartina which devastated much of the gulf coast states. It was reported that the disaster struck area as bigger than the size of Great Britain.

Some say its the worse "Natural Disaster" to date. Could it be that it was more of God's wrath on human kind? Isn't it ironic that the country with the latest and expensive technology has been hit worse than the tsunami and that there were more ill prepared for this than the country hit by Tsunami? As it was quoted, even people in india/sri lanka did some sort of barricade to prevent the water from flooding in. But who are we to judge since we are not that first hand to experience it.

I feel it could be God's way of teaching the human kind to be more humble. Have you realized that over the years human race has become so arrogant that they think everything is in their own hands even to the extend of creation of the race? thru clonning ,etc.

I have never been to New Orleans :P it was one place I wanted to go but was unable to , during the time when I was in the US. Time was too short.. too many states to visit. If you will and have the time visit this web site...
http://www.lifesite.net/ldn/2005/sep/05090111.html

I read the herald today, its so sad to know that there is no longer religious tolerance in this country. The Herald is a weekly publication with regards to the catholic happenings around the world and local. today's herald tells of break-ins to church, theft and vandalism. Yeah this is in our very own country.

A church in Masai, Johor has been broken into, the tabernacle has been destroyed and the hosts thrown and scattered all over the floor. The altar was badly damaged. And another church st. theresa's has been broken into as well and vandalise and when report was made to the police, police has advice the church to play a private security guard around the church premises.

Think about it! Why does it have to come to this. Where is our tolerance for difference or religion. Gathered that its a church and not a mosque so everything is kept hush hush and things are swept under the carpet. Think of it, if it was otherwise what a public outrage it would have bcome and a big big big issue and probably appear at all the front pages of the local papers.

Whos in the wrong? Parents? Govt? all of us? human race?
Of our "don't give shit" attitude?

Maybe all these so-called natural disasters is a way to teach us a lesson. To wake us up from our arrogance.
Maybe its time, we stand together and pray not only for ourselves, our religion , our family but for all human race to go back to the basics of life. And realized that with all the knowledge we have, we are nothing if we cannot live in harmony, in tolerance and in a civilize matter.

Maybe we can all add this to our daily prayers everynite bfore we go to bed. Wouldn't you want to live in a world that is peaceful and filled with harmony?
don't wish lets at least start with ourselves with of course with God's grace.

Forgiving oneself

Is forgiving oneself a difficult task? I believe so. Sometimes we are more critical of ourselves and others.

I have been doing some soul searching. One question that I asked myself lately, was why do I feel sad and tears starts rolling down my face when I think of my late sis-in-law. Next week on the 8th of Sept 2005, will mark her one year of departure form us all.

I began to realize, could it be that i can't forgive myself that I am also hurting that she is now gone from my life? That I no longer have a chance to remedy the situation!?

She has never really been close to me. I believe I am feeling this way, becoz I never did have a sense of closure. I believe i didn't help her enough when she was alive and ill. Maybe during her times of need I was not there. And now when she's gone I feel guilty about it and unable to help her now. Would it had been better if I had actually said sorry to her or asked for forgiveness for the times I didn't see her cry for help?

Maybe its time I learn how to forgive myself?
Maybe its time I learn to love myself more?
Maybe its time I learn to open myself more to people's love?
Maybe its time, I ask God to forgive and Let Sarah knows that deep down inside we all miss her? Or could it be I can say that to her myself and she is able to hear me?
Its just a bunch of maybes. But it could be the remedy for me, no?

My Natural State

hmmm... so is being lazy my natural state.

My colleague made a comment lately. Well we were planning some exercise program rite.. but sheis those type who wants to go to the gym everyday in the week. And on top of that 2 times for yoga.

Me on the other hand plans only to go 3 times a week and yoga once a week. So she blatantly said, you're so lazy!

Yeah whatever , lets just say, I like to do things moderately. Not to get hurt... well at least I don't starve myself like her in her pursuit to be thin like a lidi. She is already so skinny.. and hunch alittle bit coz she so thin but yet everyday she talks about how she needs to lose weight.. siow or what!

people like that deserve to be placed and not allowed to leave the asylum :P

I want to lose weight too.. But my moto is NEVER EVER SUFFER FOR FASHION OR BEAUTY.

hehehe.. so whats my natural state? LAZY or Comfort.. hehehee

KEKEKEKE....

The Eve

The Eve of Independence Day is here. For the last couple of weeks, the media has been reporting alot on this. Reflecting back to the good old days. Getting the veterans who actually experienced the memorial moment to recount the experience.

Getting the young generation to share their views of what they hope the country is or will be. What they hope to see..

You start asking yourself questions. You have been living here long enough but has things really changed? I was lucky to spend 3 years in the US of A and I loved it there. No doubt being in the mid west there is such thing as racism but its very mild.

If you have read any of those articles in the papers, you would noticed that alot of people mentioned about Bangsa Malaysia. Have you ever asked yourself whether thats just merely 2 words everyone caught on or is it the reality here?

To me, I believe that what everyone hope it is. But it is not so, at all. How can you claim we are there, when you see so much distinction in how everything is divided? Everything is categorized? Its kinda sad.

One thing i hope for this 48th Independence day is that people will just not merely say these two words but make it reality. Recognize what the situation is right now and make a conscious effort to change or make a difference. Eliminate the need or desire to see difference as a bad thing but strive to make the difference invisible.

If one is to just preach that we are multi-cultural env and so proud of it. I can say that many countries are multi cultural these days... so what would make our country any different? The Tolerance?

Of course, I am just writing based on my feelings with no intention of insulting any party. I am writing to express how I feel being a citizen.. and my hope as a citizen of this place :)

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory

I watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory today!!! Awesome... its a damn good one and I laughed all the way.

I enjoyed it to the max. I would definitely recommend it.

But as usual malaysian crowd dont' quite get some of the jokes... Dweebs....

But was good fun.

Go watch it if you can.

Finally.... but then.....

To perm or not to perm
To cut or not to cut
To color or not to color!?

That was the question that ran thru my mind for the last couple of weeks. Seriously I was trying to make a difficult decision while my fringe or banks as they would say it in the US was bugging the heck out of me coz it was just sticking into my eyes.

Then Today, I decided, its about time - its to do or die case. So I called the hair dresser. Yeah the one which i only pay RM13 for a hair cut. Asked her if there is alot of people there? She said nono good time to come. Asked her over the phone, what type of color do you have ah? She goes, LOTSSSSS come and choose.

Fine, i went there, I was looking for the shade of chestnut rite? In my hurry to find it, i actually couldn't find it. Then I found it.. WAAA WEE.. the color. I then told her... she went.. errr.. becoz the color of your hair is dark I would need to put a color lighter.. Dang it she put copper. And I have to say, I am not quite happy lah.... coz the top looks kinda reddish.... I not ang mo mah.........

Anyways.... next time will go with the convention shade.. Brown............probably a medium brown...

So now i got to live with it for awhile..... For RM65.. i guess it didn't really burn a whole in my pocket unlike my friend who paid RM300 for her color hehehee.
By the way RM65 inclusive of the trim ... :P

Progress....

Its interesting that just last week, I attended a talk on the environment in my office. The talk was basically conducted by CETDEM. Its a non-profit organization based here in the country.

It was interesting how he said eventho' we claim we have progressed but data and stats gathered basically showed that only 2 areas we have progressed in - poverty and the other is 'can't remember already'.Anyhow, transport and such hasn't progressed abit since the time we gain independence. I guess when he spoke about transport he was talking more in the context of public transportation.

As we all have experience, taking public transportation in this country is hillarious. Takes a huge amount of your time esp the waiting period. If you are one who hasn't had the oportunity to experience this, you must be the sort that is pampered like crap. The ones born with a silver spoon or one that is fortunte enough to have a car to drive around.

I travel by public transportation when i was in the local college doing my credit transfer program and when i came back from studying abroad, I travelled everywhere by public transportation. The biggest frustration comes from the waiting period and the uncertainty wehther the bus would come or not.. or wehther the train would break down ( the train or rather the commuter only came into existence after I graduated and came back.)

Always have to plan at least an hour buffer zone. Imagine huh? Bloodee waste of time huh.

I hope that govt will look into this area soon enough before more people leave the country and leave another brain drain - which in fact i think would never be healed.

Interestingly today, I heard in the training I am attending - an indonesian man said this...
I love my country but doesn't mean I love my govt but I still have to obey my govt. :)

Can we be like him looking at the beauty of the country independent of the govt? Takes a lot of conditioning?

I dont' know!

Just Like Heaven

Just Like Heaven is a book which is just read. Its written by a male author named Marc Levy. A frenchman.

I went to Kino one day after work last week and saw the book. But I didn't buy it then. As you know books are kinda expensive here in this country in comparison to other countries. So I had to think it over.

But I went home and just kept thinking about the book... So i decided to get it last tuesday.

Just like Heaven is a great read. Its funny, sad and very touching. I am surprised that this romance story written by a male is actually very enjoyable. The way the describes things and how he puts it into words. Thats awesome. I guess thats what makes a good writer.

I enjoy the book coz it describes the places so clearly that you feel you're in there yourself. Another thing is this book is based mostly around San Francisco - my fav place in the US of A.
Dreaming of falling in love and living in San Fran. Sounds crazy no? coz San Fran has a high population of gay :P All the good looking men will already be taken by men :(

By the way, this book has been made into a movie. I wonder tho' - it definitely must take a good script writer to transform all those beautiful phrases and words into movie.....

What to do, I am a sucker for romance :P
Which I am still yet to find one myself.....

Haze oh Haze

Haze oh Haze,
why don't you leave us be,
your presence is making me suffer
your presence will kill me eventually
from inability to breathe properly.

Haze is such a nuisance. I will go home this weekend.. to a place where the reading for the haze is at the 500+ level. Even with the current haze level in KL, my sensitive nose is already sufferring........

My throat feels horrible too....

Please Haze Leave us Be.

Weird Dream

Last Week I had the weirdest dream.

I dreamt myself being in a church. But funny thing is the pews were very close to the next pew and instead of the wood thing that you use to kneel down instead its like thos pedals you find on stationary bicycle?

thats not the weird part, I saw twins that looked exactly like my sis-in-law. I approached one of them and said.. ehhh you look like my sister in law and she actually said.. yeah sarah.

Whats the msg I wonder!? i haven't had visions about her since the 9th day mass we had for her.

As you know I lost my sis-in-law , sept 8th 2004. Funny she should appear in my dream. Wonder what the msg is....

and visions has been very rare these days with me. Esp with my state of low spirituality.

But I often think of her now and then.. esp when i look into the eyes of her children. We have never been close but I have tried to help her during her time of difficulty fighting the killer disease. For her 2 killer diseases.

I find it hard to talk about her.. It just bring tears to my eyes each time. I wonder if thats normal?

Harry Porter and the Half Blood Prince

I have Finally finished reading that book. This book took me longer than the other Harry Porter books. Why? Probably coz there were too many filler chapters.

Anyways.. the story is so-so. Since there is a major character chopped off in this chap, i wonder how the next book is going to be.

Anyhow I will still buy the next book tho, its gonna be the last one.

Just bought a book yesterday from kino. Hopefully its good.. :)

If the opportunity arises

These couple of weeks, I have been thinking lot. Well yeah I know this is my normal form anyways rite.. some of you might think :P

Seriously tho, if the opportunity ever arises for to go back to university to study. I would definitely go into the field of psychology. Why? That was my initial interest anyways but due to some reason i couldn't pursue it. Its a long story, and I think its high time for me to look forward and not keep hanging on and blaming that situation.

Why Psychology. well... after giving it alot of thought. I felt that its what I am interested in and futhermore, going into that field would give me a better footing if I decide to join those international organization. If i opt not to do that but instead go back into the corporate world, I am able to do that too.... so its huge new world for me.

But my unfortunate monetary state doesn't permit me to pursue this. As I do not and wouldn't have that kind of money to finance myself anytime soon. Age is also catching up.

Hence, I am looking for maybe some study grant, stipen or some sort to finance this. But alas, I do not know that many people out there.

Hence my readers, if you know of any leads.... do let me know.... drop me a line.. Give a hand to this poor soul here.....

I have never been more certain that this field is what I am interested in.

:)

Do you want to know who I am?

Who I am From an Artist impression of me.

This portrait was drawn while I was on vacation at Toronto in year 1995 , 1/2 a year before I graduated. Such a long time ago aye....

Well it was actually an asian street artist. A lady infact. I obviously took off my glasses when she drew this :P

so what do you think?

:)

Full House

No... Am not talking about the Bob Saget - Full House Sitcom.

There is this Korean series showing on TV these days. Full House is basically the house which is by the seaside.. home for this couple who married based on convenience not love.

The house is my ideal sorta house, if you remember me talking about it in one of my previous post. I talked about a house by the seaside

This house is by the seaside with a long stretch of seashore.... big house... glass surroundings.

But I guess this remains a dream !?

Down the Drain.

You know.. i had so many topics to write.. but alas.. when I actually got a chance to login . Everything just disappeared from my mind.

Its blank now....

Sigh.. i wonder why would people even bother to read my blog...

Just some boring crap... :(

Petrol up again!!!!

Gosh the last petrol hike was in May. Its just 2 months and now its up by another 10 cents. what the heck is going on. The previous hike in diesel , there was a big hoo haa...

now everyone is afraid of a domino effect. Which i assure you will happen as diesel is also going up by 20 cents.

I wish people would think deeper before doing this.

what future is left man.....

Gaji tak naik, semua lain naik!!!

Life Style

LifeStyle... what does that word mean to you? We are of various backgounds and likes. So whats your cup of tea?

As i mentioned in my previous post, I met up with a friend from AU. She lives in Darwin. And I have known her for years!!!! Almost 10 years now.. or more. But she visits once awhile.

She lives with her partner who works as a policeman or rather a snipper. WHen I asked her about what she usually does after work or how her life style is... She said my life is very simple.

I love to just take a walk. Sit by a cafe, have a drink of coffee and enjoy the big Australian sky.

wow!!!!

When I look at my life right now, it seems so pale in comparison to hers. I work and then I mope about my so unexciting life...... I can go sit by a cafe but then.. i will just breathing in pollution :P

I used to have this dream. Even as young as school days. I wanted a high flyer's job , I wanted a house by the beach that I can come back to and enjoy the sound of waves beating to the seashore.

But now, I no longer have a dream. All I think about is the fear of passing each dreadful day.

The Madness Has Begun...

As we all know, the Madness of the Malaysia Mega Sales has began yesterday. Well I was to meet a friend who is visiting from Australia. And I went to the KL city to meet up with her but i used my discreation and decided against driving to KL.

You know, how its like all them madness, the rush just becoz there's a sale?

We had dimsum and then walked about... at KLCC. My goodness, I can hardly see anything, everyone is like rushing about as tho everything is free!!!! total madness.

My head was spinning after awhile. Then I then just resorted to waiting for my friend while she shop. Don't get me wrong, I am a big shopper myself. But all this rush is really not a very condusive env for me to do my shopping. And I am those type who has to think abit before i buy something hehehee. So that kinda waste abit of time loh.

Anyways... i will still go shopping... but it would probably be on a weekday and not weekend.... :P

But it has to be smart shopping... as I have decided to save to my rainy days.... which can happen at any time... It knows no mercy or time.

To Put or Not to Put

Recently, I have been thinking about putting my picture in this blog. Since i find it too plain and can't really find an exciting template.

G - introduced me to blog skin.. but what the heck, dont' even know how to use it. Spend enough time at work with this IT shits, so I don't think I want to blow my brains out trying to figure out. Not right now. Maybe later :)

Then I guess I have decided against it. Coz funnily, I have a knack for remembering faces and name. I once saw a photo of a person in match.com. And I actually saw this person at a mall and recognized him.

So I think there is a danger of that hehehe.
But I am looking for the portrait which was drawn by a street artist in toronto of me.. when I visited toronto while i was still a student in the US of A.

I will try to locate it and then post it okay....

Gotham IT!!!!

Hehe. Got your attention didn't I?
Well I have to say, I am abit late but I just finished watching Batman Begins.

Remember the Guy I mentioned in my lunch at the temple update? Well I saw him again today!?!?!? On the big screen that is... In BATMAN Begins. If you wondered how the guy at the temple looked like, he looked like Christian Bale but the difference is that guy has blue eyes and.... has nicer looking teeth hehehe.

Sorry ya, but Batman's teeth kinda like dracula's abit lerr.....

So now you know how handsome that guy is huh. Hopefully i will bum into again someday.........but in real life of course and not on the big screen.....................

This one Phrase

Recently, I have a colleague who joined the same day as I have and we happened to be both in the same team.

He is very young interms of his experience in the working world. After 7 months in this company, he kept saying.. nobody cares! you have to care for yourself. Coz at the end of the day, nobody cares!

What he speaks is of course the truth. In a world where dog eat dog, do you think that the very person you so called friend at work would never ever backstab you when it comes to a situation whereby that person have to save him or herself?

In in the actual world out there, NOBODY CARES! whether you live or you die. What you're sad or happy. Whether you're lonely or dying.

thats reality. Thats what the world has become today.

Harry Porter and the Half blood prince

Yesterday was the lauching of the book worldwide. We didn't preorder.
So my brother went to get the book and it cost him 99.99 ringgit. He very sakit hati hahaha.

The last book i bought, also hard cover and i paid 10 ringgit less.

i have read all the harry porter books. Eventho' there has been contraversial stuff about it esp being christian and all and what the pope thought about it and the church.

to me its just fiction. I am not a kid , I am an adult who knows how to distinguish between whats true and whats not. Furthermore, I would agree, I wouldn't let my kids read, if I had any that is. Coz i don't think kids has the maturity to differentiate whats fiction and whats not.

:)
So......................... will be reading it soon.................

Procrastination

Okay I have to admit. I have a long list of things to accomplish. But I can't just bring myself to do it.

I guess I am just a great procrastinator. I just want to sleep and can't seem to bring my big but out of the couch once i get home.

In a way its good... i usually... just lie down on the couch after a shower.. i get tired.. sometimes skip dinner. So that part is helping me lose weight but also helping me being weak. Hmm.. see always pros and cons in very damn thing.

i am due to clean up my room but too lazy. Coz weekends.. is the only day, I don't have worry about what to eat as my mom does the cooking therefore I just sleep and wake up to eat. Yeah a pig.

I think I need some reform in my life.

the 4 areas of life that i believe everyone should focus on
1) Family
2) Social
3) Work
4) Spiritual
Not in any particular order.

I just need to break this chain of procratination and move on with things.

Do you like my New look?

Hey peeps,

So far I have changed my template afew times. Do you like this one better than the 2 previous ones?

Opnions please..............

Can't seem to find the perfect one that I want.

Lunch Time on Friday...........

Yesterday, I had lunch with 2 of my colleagues at the temple. Yeah at the temple. They do have sort of a food like thingy. Actually its just mix rice and they also have a stall that sells noodles and another to sell fruits. Pretty cheap really. Its vegetarian, naturally.

So whats so great about lunch at the temple yesterday. I saw the most gorgeous guy. I usually pick the seat and today's seat was right on!!! It wasn't intentional. I saw down first and 2 tables away were a group of mat sallehs. The gorgeous one was at the fruit stall and suddenly he sat facing me and i had a great view of him too...

Holly smolly.. the most gorgeous blues eyes and brown hair..... gosh.. and since it was pouring cats and dogs.. they sat there for quite awhile. So I had a real cuci mata session hahahaa..
Obviously I couldn't tell anyone else as 2 of my colleagues were guys and they were seated facing me... hahahahaa...

Gosh... but i guess that image would now remain as a fantasy...........

just ....

Lately, I have logged on into bloggers and then sign in and then signed out. Didn't know what to write eventho' almost always during the day, I have something in my mind to write about.

blogger's block? only if there were such thing.

Lately, I am a walking zombie again.
I sleep at the earliest times possible and wake up only feeling even more tired.
I set the alarm at 6am... stay in bed... say my prayers... and askingGod to help me for the day.

the only update i have is that... i probably dont' have a future in my current co coz I dont'know how to play politcs and my boss said to me that I need to be visible to be able to move up. I am a low profile person. Hard working, reliable.... always tehre when you need someone for support, help. I guess in the corporate world , that ain't enough.

I got my phoneline. But since no streamyx, its bloodee slow. Dial up is driving me up the wall.. but I ain't gonna spend more money.

Thinking about

Just a few days ago, I wrote down on a piece of paper while at work.

Thinking about ....
- A different sort of life
- Mr. Right
- sleeping ZZZZZzzz
- old friends
- Jason S.
- a flexible job
- Italy
- a life in Italy
- academic work
- not being cooped up in a box for 8 hours....
- leaving the corporate world

Religion and Me

I would to comment on what a friend wrote in one of my comment...

"I can feel the religion is really really get into u.

It's a good thing!"

Religion! Its such a complicated thing. Whats it to me? Its a journey that over the years,that have bought alot of ups and downs in my life.

Am I , a religious person? I personally feel that I have a long way to grow in this. Eventho' I have been a catholic for years almost my whole life. But its such a thing that when you look at the graph, you would see the up points and the low points.

I have had my despairs in life many times more than never. I have doubts that would not leave me till today. I haven't been able to cross the line where I totally have no doubts and my believe is as strong as the rocks that builds the foundation of the cliff.

Am I really into religion? Well religion gives a sense of groundedness when I need it. No matter how much i argue sometimes against certain things or I am angry with God for all the trials He puts my family thru and myself thru. I still go back to Him. Why? Why, indeed. Maybe deep down in my heart I know that there is a powerful force out there that controls everything, knows every step I take. I know that eventually when I knock hard enough, He will listen and make my life/ sufferrings a bit better.

I do not want to compare my life with the less fortunate here. As I truely know and I see this everyday of my life - how fortunate I am. Yet.... deep down inside I have my problems. My family has problems that God keeps putting in our path. We are not bad people. We follow religious teachings but of course not to the extent of being a fanatic. so you can't help but question why.

So I just want to say, I have no choice but to hang on to something that I pray and believe will help me get thru this cruel life on earth and build me a path to be with my creator.

I dont' know if I make sense. But what I am trying to say is that, I would not give up my religion for anything even love but I go thru periods where I hate having a religion too where I am govern to be nice when the world is so cruel to me....

I shed tears when I look and realize that it's better to be bad then good when being good will only make you end up last. Being nice is only being taken advantage of.

I am not perfect, and I wouldn't say that I have reached the spiritual level where I am just able to ignore what the world offers... But I am glad to say that I truely Strive to do good and my best.

I dont' know if things will change in the future.

personality and work life

Recently, my boss sent the team an invitation asking us to go to globalsmart and do a personality test. According to her , this is to foster better working env. Anyways, only 2 ppl did , myself and another girl and of course my boss.

At the end of the questionaire you're suppose to select to compare with the team mates.
HOlly Smolly, I am the totally opposite of my boss. I am direct while she is not (cunning fella), I don't care about class or status, while she does... eeeeeeee and there are other comparison.

So will this personality revelation cost me the chance to climb up in this CO? Perhaps...

The Packaging

Do you notice something about the picture posted above?

If not please look at the top of the packaging shown- notice it says Wet disposable towel?

and at the bottom it says "The Finest Cuisine in Town"

Excuse me... do you consider a wed disposable towel as a cuisine!?!?!?

hehehhee... i took this back from a wedding dinner i attended tonite... weird huh.

Interesting packaging.. so i thot i better take a picture of it and post in my blog before its all forgotten kekekekee.

Suzanne's Diary for Nicholas

Suzanne's Diary for Nicholas by James Patterson.

This was the second book I was talking about but maybe this was his first romance novels.

The story? Its quite good but its written in a total different way, like how one would write a diary for future keeps. Its really touching. But in the beginning of the novel, suzanne said this .... its very meaningful and I would like to share with you........

A friend once told Suzanne a story and it goes like this

" Imagine life is a game in which you are juggling five balls. The balls are called work, family, health, friends and integrity. And you're keeping all of them in the air. But one day, you finally come to understand that work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back. The other four balls - family, health, friends, integrity - are made of glass. If you drop one of these, it will be irrevocably scuffed, nicked, perhaps even shattered. And once you truely understand the lesson of the five balls, you will have the beginnings of balance in your life......."

TRUE?
i believe so.. if only everyone can find courage to know it and do something about it.

The routine of life will kill you.... and before you realized you're a feeble old woman or man.

Where Have They All Gone?

One thing I like to do is - naturalistic obversation. I dont' feel weird dining alone or walking alone. Hey what the hey, I even watched movie alone before.

When I am waiting for people or when I am seating alone eating or in the LRT or monorail I like to obverse things.

Yesterday, I was out riding the public transportation. Drove, parked somewhere, took the LRT and then walked some and then boarded the monorail. Throughout my journey i was observing my surroundings.

One thing that kept poping into my mind is - Where has all the good looking people gone? I mean.... all the ones I saw i would definitely consider below avg lah... Seriously. I mean I am not saying I am looker or anything but you know like any one else you want to see something soothing to the eyes. When I was in the US, they were everywhere... Cute guys at every corner , every nook. What happened to the asian men??? that bad gah?

Anyways, since there was nothing to cuci mata with, I found something else. You know, the smell of damp clothes or those that never go the sunshine much? That pungent smell..
It kills me when the LRT or monorail is so packed and it reeks of that smell. Gosh makes me wonder if these ppl know they stink. if they realized it, why did they still wear those clothes.

How many of you have taken the public transportation lately? Have you seen any good looking people around town.... ?

TM : Dirimu bukan sekadar nombor

Ye KE?!?!?!? Semuanya cuma kata-kata kosong.

Bila anda memandu di jalanraya, papan iklan ini kelihatan di mana-mana. Sungguh menyakitkan mata. Bagi saya, bukan saja, ia menyakitkan mati tetapi menyakitkan hati....

Diriku memang sekadar nombor bagi TM. Sejak saya, menjejak kaki di kedai TM pada bulan februari, rasa kecewa saya adalah tidak terhingga. Kenapa dikatakn begitu, itukan yang anda sedang fikir?

Ceritanya panjang. Tapi pendek kata, kalau nak lafaskan slogan begitu, TM mesti ada "action" yang boleh menyakinkan rakyat malaysia yang mereka adalah sungguh dgn slogan mereka.

Sejak feb sehingga kini, talian telepone masih tak ada. Sedih................

Pendek kata.... Sehingga hari ini, diriku cuma sekadar nombor rujukan.... and kawasan tinggal saya cuma sebahagian daripada kaji siasatan mereka... and pelanggan yang mungkin boleh jadi sebahagian daripada pendapatan mereka, sedang mencari jalan lain untuk mendapatkan talian telepone, kalau boleh tidak dgn TM. Tapi, kebanyakan kawasan adalah kepunyaan TM.

So TM!!!! BUCK UP......

The Falls..............

this was part of my 4x4 trip... beautiful aye??

More to come............ when I get the time and mood to do it.. but shall do it before it becomes an old and stale story...............

Weekend is almost over

Remember my previous post where I said that I will snooze my brains out? ehehe Well I kinda did....
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But even with that i managed to finish a book I just borrowed last week and completed the whole book yesterday and what more a book I just started reading yesterday. Yes, I have to admit I do read books prett fast. Therefore, these days, I try to borrow books more than I buy. Coz at the end of the day, i dont' want to be collecting more books when I don't have any place to keep em.

The book I just read is called Sam's Letter to Jennifer. Uh huh, you got that right, its a love story but the ironic thing is, its written by a man : James Patterson. this is the very ever first book in terms of love story that I have read which was written by a MAN. Its interesting that when you read the book, it kinda doesn't stick to your mind that the writer is a man. But truely its a book worth readin... for male or females. Its poignant and talks about love and life. So many beautiful quotes in there. I am gonna borrow one of his other books... another love story. But he is actually not a romance writer , he wrote books like The 4th of July and many more those category books. But the two i just mentioned were his only 2 romance books.

On sat morning, before I went for my facial, I was watcing channel 17 ( my fav channel - when it has nice things on) and there were showng the great outdoor adventure. Its how this couple of guys tried to conquer mount cotopaxi in Peru i think. How the stuff one guy said in there was so meaning. How cotopaxi is not for conquering. They can only reach the peak if cotopaxi allows it. They almost didn't make it 2 times and had to fall back. It made them realized that they didn't respect it enough. It was totally awesome how it was said. Anything on mother earth you can only experience if the big power allows you to................... Cool huh.

I love hearing quotes like that or statments like that. I started couple of years ago , where i kept this notebook and i wrote down all the quotes that touched me. Well after I left my pervious company, i sorta misplaced the book. Yeah I kinda misplaced alot of things in my life too... SIGH.

This is part of me that you shall learn more... as you get to learn more about me. I am a sentimental person... in alot of ways.... but by me talking about this doesn't really count. I would like you to know me when you read my blog. Of course I have to be honest to say that I would not in anyway, make myself read like an open book. Its not my style....

Also, lately, I have been having thoughts about moving to Italy.Why? Dunno ,maybe the idea of having the chance to live near a monastery and find solace is very enticing at the moment. Maybe it things permit, study philosphopy as its a subject matter that interest me as much as psychology does. :) I do not have any idea how my life would proceed after this or where things will lead me. But I do know I am tired of fighting. My fighting spirit is going down hill and I am resigned to let fate take me where faith wants to lead me.

The overrated........

Watched Mr & Mrs Smith yesterday.......... Its WAY OVERRATED!!!!!!

My friends and I thought this would be good movie. we usually wait till the show shows at our cheap cinema which charges RM5 after the movie has shown for awhile. But my friend who kept telling us that she wanted to watch in a confortable cinema and was willing to pay RM11 for it. HAHAH OH BOY! was she disappointed.

Granted that Brad Pitt is ahunk and all.. but the bottom line is the movie is not as great as advertised. Kinda like the advertisement for KFC OR FILLET BURGER.... It false advertising that one if you ask me... the burger is way smaller than its shown. I MEAN WAY WAY WAY Smaller....

I did finally watch Star Wars EP III. Was good I have to admit. Went to berjaya timesquare to watch it. Weird thing is its at GSC also but it only cost RM8 before 6pm shows and weekends and after 6pm shows only cost RM9. Mid valley is cost much more... wonder why...........

Just waiting to watch ... NARNIA.................. hoooo hoooooooooooooooooooooooo
and also the Interpreter...................

June.........

Its about this time one year ago, I got my first offer to leave big O after being 6.5 years there. Its almost a year now... can you believe it?

Time sure flies. brings back memories about the emotional turmoil I went thru during that period of time and how the world just went down hill and never stopped.

How am I faring now as its been a year now? I would say, that window of opportunity gave me the courage to leave the place which had lost its luster to me but yet I hung on just becoz I was too afraid of the unknown. I wouldn't say that I am totally happy everyday of my life since I left.

I miss my old friends.. I miss the familiarity ... Unfortunately, nothing last forever.

Just couple of days ago, I got both sms-es and emails telling me that 2 of the people whom I would say quite close to me in my previous company has tendered and left the company. Funnily when I called one of them, she told I am the first to congratulate her while others kept telling her that she made a mistake. She told me that she is afraid. I told her, I felt the same way when I left. Filled with fear and anxiety. Consoling her was like just me consoling myself. I told her that it will eventually get better...

But did it get better for me? I am still having sleepless nites. Esp this week, I can't sleep, I can barely eat. I had 2 escalation this week while the bloodee indian bonnie just sat on his big fat arse and did nothing except a 85 format proof reading document. The work load is definitely not equally distributed

And to add on to the problem, this lab admin who is also my team mate doing the same work but with additional role as lab admin has threaten me. See, he is very very extremely unhappy with bonnie. But he is chicken shit.. he doesn't want to complain but instead asking the rest of us to complain then he will complain. He gave me an ultimatum during lunch yesterday, he said, okay in your 1 to 1 with yoda ( nickname we gave our boss but just fortunate, she is neither cute nor as adorable as yoda but her height matches hehehehe) to spill the beans about bonnie. I said if you want to tell go ahead but you can't dictate what I want to say in my 1 to 1. Then he said this , if so then don't ever come look for me with work relate things esp the lab. WHAT THE !*@&#(*!&@#*!. whats happening to the team?

For me, I just do my work, I need to get my numbers up.... thats all. Get my fricking salary and dream of a future away from this corporate crap.

Actually bonnie has a nickname we call him at work its 42.... :) have you ever watch that awful not fully english comedy on tv.... the no 42 at ....
hehehhee.

My mood has better today. Thurdsay and friday was pretty foul as problems just kept piling up and I hate the bloodee developers in the US. Bloodee arrogant group of s (!&@#*(&!@. Yesterday I was at work at 6.40am... doing some CBT training before the meeting at 10 and also to complete one of my cases.

This weekend I am just gonna snooze my brains out.

God's Will

I subcribe to the Jesuit Website where they will send you the day's reflection.

Today's was God's Will

Immaculate Heart of Mary: Saturday, 4th June 2005 (Lk 2:41-43,45-46,48-51a) Dear Friend in the Lord, God’s Will: Jesus stayed back in the Temple to teach about His Father. Are you able to sense God’s Will in the different challenges that you are facing daily? Could it be to pray more regularly, spend more time with your family or to serve the Church or the poor more readily? Listen to the Spirit in your heart. Fr Philip Heng, S.J.

Do you know then whats God's will for you?
I think I have reflect harder and take more quite moments to find out what the spirit is telling...............me

My Greatest Fear....

Recently, I have begun to identify more clearly about my fear. I am constantly in fear. My anxiety is relatively high almost on a daily basis. Can't imagine rite? Well thats the fact.

I dont' sleep well. and these days don't even think straight no more.

I am able to define one of my greatest fear. I have loads but one of the biggest one is growing old alone without anyone beside me. Of course then that would relate to my status of being single. I know my parents is not going to be here forever. There will come a time when they would too need to leave this place called earth to be with God.

What will become of me then? Can i rely on my sibillings who have their own family to care for.

Why this fear? I guess if you are someone who has loads of friends who are by your side and you have friends whom you spend alot of time with or alot of friends, you probably won't be feeling this.

I am a person who is more skewed to being introverted. I am very cautious about bla-ing things to people. Therefore, probably harder for people to get to know me. I personally feel that I am a nice and good person minus the torrent temper sometimes.

Dunno why its so tough to find a person to share my life with. You know what else, I think part of the problem is that I dont' go out much. I hate parties, I dislike bars.. discos... The smokes kills me.. I enjoy things i wish sometimes, I can find friends or just a activity partner to share with.

Some people tell me to pray harder. I guess praying hard for the last 10 years should account for something. I don't know. But nothing has yet to happen. I feel like giving up as I don't see any light at the end of the tunnel.

FYI, i never thought I will ever blog and tell people about me! Coz ME = Personal. unless i know and trust you enough :P

Blogging for me is an indication that I have come a long way in letting people know abit about me. Prior to this, you probably have to spend a gazillion hours with me before you get to know the real me :)

Imagine my best friend is someone I knew from kindy????!?!?!?! But unfortunately in this past year, I have lost her to this cult..... Which almost got me too but thank God that He made me realize it.

I hope my greatest fear will not become a reality.....
Therefore, my readers..... please keep me in your prayers as I know you have found people to share your life with. I wish for that too... SOON.................

Pointy Shoes

Alrighty... by now, if you have been reading my blogs you would know that I have this obsession with shoes and bags.

But unfortunately, the shoes sold these days I can't really wear 'em. Why?? coz I have broad feet and i can't really squash them into those pointy front shoes.... I am already nursing shoe corn right now.... i can't afford to get more.. dang!!!!!!!!

Gosh... I need those square toes and chunky heels to be back in fashion. Will they ever be back!!!

I miss you!!!!!! :(

RestRooms and all that............

Public TOILETSSSS or a better way of putting it, Public Restrooms. Hmmm.. Okay, I pretty much sick of the sight of our public restrooms. I think every M-sian , can identify with my view of the public restrooms. People would think that office restrooms are better but some can be horrifying too.

I recently was attending training at one of the tech training center in town. One thing I am not able to understand and still dont' is why the heck people have to spray the whole toilet seat wet!?!?!?!??! Granted that we know certain " group " of people don't use paper as they are not permitted to use toilet paper hence they need the water pipe thingy in the stall.

But for heaven's sake , think of the rest of the users too. The blinking thing is wet!!!! how do you expect one to sit on it. Something worse when u go to the public restrooms in malls and all, where you have to pay a fee to get in and you get in and the place just reeks of ammonia and the floor is wet!!! like it had rained non stop. You get into a stall and find tissue paper everywhere and sometimes pee on the seat and such.

And you wonder why people choose to squatting on the seat covers instead of sitting!!!!
Doesn't take a genius to figure that out.

I think M-sians should actually change their attitude. THey suck. I dont' think anyone likes to pay or go into such a horrendous place to do their nature call.

Maybe they should remove the water pipes.. .then it would be drier but would it be any cleaner? I DOUBT it...

The Untitled

Yesterday, I met up with LL and somethings she mentioned during the meeting touched home. Like how she said about prayer. Sometimes you don't need to say anything, just stay silent and tell the Lord to help you hear and feel.

Funnily, couple of weeks ago, i wrote in my journal that I don't know how to pray. yesh I keep a journal which I the first line is DEAR JC. So this kinda touched home, in a way, I actually didn't have to say anything. All I had to do is lift up whats in my heart to JC.

I wonder sometimes why people are drawn to religion? I myself wonder too sometimes. But as i wonder about it, i also know that eventhough I have doubts and somethings that I disagree on sometimes but i will always return to my good old faith. Why? maybe it gives me a sense of being rooted. Maybe people who don't have religion finds some consolation in other ways, like the priest once said all the -isms. Materialism, feminism.. blablablaa.. and make those as their religion.

sigh..................

still a lost soul........................

Updates from Kenya

I received my second letter from Kenya. I am very surprised as this one was dated in april too. Couple of weeks after the 1st one was sent. I am surprised coz she told me that she will be back home by end of May and its almost the end of May.

Her letter to me tells me that she has made a decision about what she wanted to do. It wasn't her calling to be full time in the missionary. To me its a beautiful letter. In this letter, she tells me that she now sees clearly what God's calling is for her which is to be in charge of her own family at home which over the year she has found it hard and let go of it all. she also discovered that this time away from home and in Kenya has made her realised that people is the one matters. Other people and not yourself.

she has in her letter to me suggested that i take this path to go to Kenya and experience it. As she find that it will give me the peace of mind and heart that I have been looking for.

I am not sure though but at least I know there is an option for me when i do decide.

Its great to receive letters like real snail mail instead of emails... :) Its so great to see the handwriting of a person.

I used to write home alot when I was in the US. and every holiday i went, i try to mail a post card home from the places I have been.

Sentimental person ... thats who I am... :)
maybe that is why its do difficult for me to put the past away.

Doing something for the Environment

As you know, I just came back from my nature trip :)
But I have been a MNS member for 3 years plus now. But unfortunately, I haven't had the chance to participate in any of the activities yet as the ones that I wanted to join is always full.

On thursday, I had to go to church for day of obligation - ascension day. Since mass is at 7.30pm, I decided to stop by Amcorp mall to go to the internet cafe. As you all know by now, the place I am staying in right now doesn't have phone line nor internet access.

While I was walking into the building, I was stopped by this guy dressed in a white tshirt holding a WWF logo. He was explaining me this and that balblabla. Trying to convince me to be a donor for WWF. I mean after going to the Elephant Santuary at Kuala Gandah, Pahang, I realized that its very difficult to conserve these animals and the cost is high. So they need funds and the only way to supplement the funds from the govt is to appeal to the public for monetary help.

So I decided that I want to help conserve the env for the future generation. Taman Negara being the last forest around. I wanted to help.... So i decided to donate 30 ringgit a month. Yes. that would be deducted automatically from my credit card every 4 months once. They are doing the forth monthly thingy to help save administrative cost.

We earn money , dont' you think we should do somethings for the society instead of being my colleague who talks about one day helping people and doing some missionary work but half the time she only buys gucci, LV stuff. ???? contridicts right?

Anyways, I should be sending a cheque ( or check as americans will type) to the Monfort Boys school. Help them survive.

I don't know how much this is considered a change but the little bit that I do, I hope someone will benefit from it.

The Labour Day Weekend

We had a long weekend last week. It was our labour day which happened to fall on a Sunday and automatically Monday is a public holiday.

I went on a 4x4 Adventure trip. So whats this trip all about. Well the activites in this trip are
1) White River Rafting
2) 4X4 off road ride
3) Visiting of santuary of Elephants and blablabla.

Anyhow, the trip was good, but seeing that it didn't rain in Pahang so the river was pretty low tide. Hence the rapids wasn't that many and ride down turned out to be less exciting. But before the ride we had to do all the water confidence thingy including jumping down form the rocks to the river where the water was pretty swift. And also the capsize activity. It was cool tho' But becoz i had to take off my glasses, my head hurts after that and I spent the rest of the evening at the hotel restroom, puking. Probably due to the heat.

The second day we went on a 4x4 ride at Sungai Chalit. Pretty cool.. got bruises to show it. We went in using Grade 2 Path and came back using Grade 4 path. The grade 4 one was totally awesome but at the same time pretty scary. 5 of us at the back and 3 of us standing in a row , holding on to the rails. :) I am still waiting for the pictures to be placed in the drive. The ones I took is only when the 4x4 stopped. We also stopped at the water falls which was totally cool.
This isn't my first 4x4 trip. I went for one couple years ago with my ex company. That was we had to camp. THis one, hehe.. we stayed in an aircon hotel.

All in all I thought the trip was pretty good. And paying about RM240 only. For me it was worth the money but for others I don't know. Some people complained it was too expensive.

Well since these days, I can only blog from the internet cafe during weekends, I shall load the pictures another time. :)

Gosh I miss the free internet access at work thingy. And my new place has no phone line.. Sucks big time.

The blues are singing again

I haven't been writing for awhile. Why? Just that the roller coaster is that down position at the 'mo.

The feeling got worse after I celebrated my birthday this week. Turning a year hasn't been this bad. I remember couple of years ago when I was changing age group, I dreaded it but it didn't feel so bad. But this year totally felt like SHIT.

I can't shake off that feeling....
A friend asked, if i would like to talk about it. Its not that I don't want to but its just that I don't know how to begin.

You know, I don't know who I am anymore. Sometimes, people wonder how can you say such nonsense. Have you ever felt the same way. Like you lost the person who you were?

Hot Tamales

Hot Tamales

YUMMMMYYY!!!. So wahts this Hot Tamales? Its Cinnamon Chewy Candy..

This was the pack i bought when I was in Houston. I had to eat bit by bit only coz this is the only packet i have left :). Its funny how, I already had planned to buy loads of this but due not having a car, i could only frequent those convenient stores in downtown. I found this pack which is 2 for USD1.00. I finished the other pack right after i bought it. YEAH, you got that right, the whole pack. :P

How did i get hooked with this hot tamales. Well Americans have weird taste in certain things. They like cinnamon alot and this soft drink called DR. PEPPER. Well I will stay clear from Dr. Pepper. It taste like Cough Syrup if you ask me. thats something I never caught on eventhough I spent 3 years in the States while studying my BA Degree.

But Hot Tamales i got hooked. I was introduced to this by a course mate - Beth. She used to chew alot of these when we had our group meetings. The first taste of it, it just cuts your tongue with the taste esp with the first one. Then the subsequent ones, you will love it. I went to WallMart and bought many many boxes of it. Yeah, the packaging was different in the midwest.

Anyhow, if you have a chance to try this, let me know what whether you like it. my younger brother, said yuck to it. Mom was being polite saying its okay. hehehe.

But regardless of what ppl think, I like it!!!!
Its an acquired tasted. hehehe.

A letter from Kenya

Remember my friend who decided to throw everything she had here and go to Kenya to do missionary work? Well, I received a letter from her today. Well an aerogram to be more precise.

Kenya from her description isn't an easy country to be doing missionary. Besides preaching and evangalizing, all these priests have to care for these people's meals too and also to find ideas to help these people develope in terms of being self sufficient.

When you think about this, dont' we have alot to be appreciative for. Here was have stuff yet we complain, about how bad our country is balbalbala. Moving and emigrating to another country to find a better future while these people in Kenya doesn't have time to think about future when they have to think about surviving today.

My friend mentioned in her letter that many many times, she felt like packing her bags and leaving. Being a lay missionary there, she also have to help carry stuff, like manual labour. of course being a girl and being raised in a pampered way, she is totally not used to this. yet she perservered.

I believe that would make her a better person.
She has been there since Feb 21st.......... how time flies. She was worried that I wouldn't receive her letter until after she come back next month.

Time sure flies, I wonder when I will have the courage to let go of everything and follow this unbeaten path.

This Old man....

I just had to blog this down.

Well I have been working at this particular area for about 7 years now. I sometimes go to this big and famous mall in KL to eat as its walking distance from work.

Well I like fast food. I know I know its fattenning but what the hey... got to live life once in a while.
Well I used to go to burger king, coz that time they didn't have Mc D yet but now they do. When I frequent this burger joint, I used to see this quite elder man. Well in our normal not so politically correct term , we would say OLD. yuppers. He would buy himself a whopper meal and seat down and eat happily. I have seen him many occasions dining there. Whats so interesting about this.

Well i got me thinking, my dad is about 60 hates fast food , all sorts. But this man..... he seems to enjoy it.

What triggered me to write this was, just this week, I decided to go to KFC to try the curry crunch thingy. GUESS WHAT!?!?!?! I saw him there seating and enjoying his KFC meal.. AWESOME mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

This is so cool so it kinda changed my perception that the older generation dont' like fast food. We have a avid fan, people!!!!! :)

I wish I had a camera phone then I can capture his picture... Cute little old man. Little as in petite....